Snow is so beautiful, don’t you think? I love the snow. Today as I was walking back to my room from class though, I was thinking about how eerie it is when you’re walking through the snow and there isn’t any noise. Think about it. Rain makes noise when it hits the ground, but the snow is totally silent. I think it’s funny how when it snows and snow lands on your nose it’s super cute and you cross your eyes to try and see it, but when it rains we put our hoods up and walk with our heads down. Rain is annoying and snow is fun. I also find it eerie because you know that somewhere a car probably just went into a ditch or someone got into an accident. Snow is silent, but it creates a lot of noise. Something so extremely beautiful can be such a dreadful thing.
So that’s what I was thinking about today! Today has really been a 1989 day. I just love Taylor so much. She’s so perfect and I could go on and on and on and on. Anyone catch that one? oh… haha 🙂 OH! So my birthday is in 2 days and I’m SUPER pumped and today I received flowers from the best boyfriend in the whole world. I would say that they’re beautiful but they haven’t really bloomed yet so I’ll save that for when they bloom. Hahaha 🙂 I’m so excited for my birthday because I’m going to bake a cake! Who doesn’t love cake?!
Well kids I have to get back to my homework now. Talk to you soon! ❤
Suicide is a horrible thing. Something that shouldn’t be joked about ever. Today one of my professors said something along the lines of “If you’re going to make me do math I might as well commit suicide.” Did he really mean it? Of course not. But that is absolutely not something you joke about, especially in a class full of college students who most likely know someone who has committed suicide or are even contemplating it. I honestly got so upset I almost left. I hardly paid any attention the rest of the class. In September my 16 year old cousin committed suicide and it has really left a mark on me. I could probably count on both of my hands the amount of times I saw her because she lives 6 hours away from my house, but that does not mean it didn’t affect me. I think about her all the time actually. At my graduation party this summer she wrote on my picture thing “we need to see each other more.” Gosh she was just so cute and young and innocent. It makes me feel absolutely horrible that she had no other way out. The only thing that makes me feel better about the whole situation is that she’s happier now. She’s got to be happier now.
Back to my main point though. Suicide is not a joke. I 100% hate it when people laugh about something so serious. They make jokes about killing themselves while someone might actually be doing the same thing they’re joking about. It’s so sad. It breaks my heart. Suicide is the second leading cause of death for people 15-24. Can you believe that? Let that soak in for a minute. This is a huge problem in society because everyone makes jokes about it!! IF WE TREATED THIS SERIOUSLY MORE PEOPLE WOULD GET HELP. If you need help you should not be afraid to get it. We want you here. You were put here for a reason, and you might not know what it is yet, but it’s important. You are so, so important. I don’t know why I’m here yet. I’m sure I’m not going to figure it out for a while. But there is a reason and I’m determined to find it. All I know is that I’m important to this life, Carrie was important to this life, and you’re important. Don’t ever forget that.
Sometimes you’re on top. Stay Humble. Sometimes you’re hit a low. Stay Hopeful.
The bracelet that I’m holding in that picture is a lokai bracelet. The white bead carries water from Mount Everest to represent when you feel on top of the world. The black bead carries mud from the Dead Sea which is actually the lowest point on Earth. This bracelet represents staying balanced. I seriously love this so much because it is a reminder that honestly people either have it a lot worse than you or people have it a lot better than you. A lot of the time I should probably be reminded to stay balanced because I get way too upset about things that honestly just really don’t matter that much in the long run. How many times have you freaked out about something and then a few days later was like ….oh…..? That happens to me all the time. Well..not all the time..but often enough. And then I get embarrassed. Just the other night I was soooo mad at Tom because I thought he was ignoring me when I called him. Turns out he was just asleep when I called. Oops. I mean seriously I was so mad I sent him a few texts that were pretty mean and then in the morning he got mad because he was asleep and then it turned into this big thing literally because I freaked out when I should’ve just figured that he was asleep. Moral of this story. Stay balanced. Don’t get mad at someone for sleeping. Stay humble. Stay hopeful. Love yourself. Love others.
Have a great week! I’ll hopefully be on once or twice this week 🙂
ps here’s the website for the Lokai bracelet if you want to buy one!